Chasing dreams, not diamond rings

Sunday, November 05, 2006

My theory...

People always look back in the past and wonder what they could have done differently. Me, on the other hand... I don't care to do that anymore. What's done is done, and it should stay in the past. I look back frequently and think to myself- I should have done this, I should have done that. I regret things. I wish I cherished things more, wish I cared, loved, talked... everything more. But sadly, this is how people learn in life. Experiences shape you and you learn how bitter/happy/sad/exciting things can be. These experiences also teach you that things in this world just aren't as pretty and wonderful as they portray it in movies. Our generation is constantly in dream mode. We always think things can get better and that other people have it better than us. In certain circumstances, that may be the case... but did you ever realize that we're all blessed with different experiences that make us unique and help us afford the lifestyle of our choice? Life is about choices. You make them. Live UP to, and own up to the choices that you've made and be happy with them. If you're not happy, then do something. I for one, can't say that I've made the best choices. But I am making the best out of my situation and I'm trying to mitigate and minimize my losses. In a few months, I will hopefully be in a better state than I am now. You can't be perpetually happy- happiness is not entirely in your control because there are external forces at play. But I challenge all of us to try to be happy with what we have. We are more fortunate than most and we make decisions for us. Nobody else does.

I really didn't set out to write the blurb above... it just came out and I don't know what I think of it. But really, what I wanted to say was that sometimes you don't know if you're doing the right or the wrong thing for you. In the past couple of months I realize that there is a very thin line between the good and the bad. You can't really tell at any point in time if you're making the right decision for you (or for someone else if there is someone else involved). I don't have a solution to this issue... I wish that someone would tell me what to do in these cases. I'm so used to business case analysis from school but you can't do one for daily life situations! You have to act and respond right at that moment b/c the time will come and it will go... and when it goes and you've done either everything or nothing, you might feel like a complete idiot. The worst is... you never know when you're doing something right or wrong when it involves your own, and someone else's emotions. Things just aren't transparent. People could look fine but feel something totally different inside. Feelings and memories last forever. You leave a piece of you with someone and take a piece of them with you as you go through in life. It's funny how feelings from the past have a stronger hold on me then the feelings I'm currently experiencing. I guess that's what happens when you see more of the world and become more jaded. Everyone loses their soul. Not just biz kids :P And sometimes you wonder if some things are going to come back and kick you in the ass. I've always been more of a thinker... but who knew so much could come out of nothing ?!

NEWAYS, weekend was great. Had dinner w/ my fam on Friday nite- Red Lobster! It was really really good. Then went to Maddy's w/ Morris for some Morris-Jules time. Met up w/ some of his friends and sat near the Piano Man. He was wicked!!! Morris' friend Adam was hilarious. hahaha... ;) Saturday I tried to study. Did very little (and doing very little now) but I went out at nite w/ Gigi. It was an awesome all girl's nite. We went downtown and there was a HUGE LINE UP at 11pm and it took us about an hour to get in. The crowd was older, mostly 25-30 year olds, and it was awesome. The martini's were SOOO GOOD. And the guys were hot! The bummer is that on the way there, my right heel broke! It was so sad. I loved the shoes, but I guess I'd have to go and get a new pair now that they're dead. I somehow managed to walk & dance in them all nite. Anyways, I'm off. Have a great day everyone :)

[Yea, oddest blog ever. I know.]

Thursday, November 02, 2006

1. The work elevator is dangerous.

2. I attract morons. Yeah that's all. No, nothing happened. Just a sudden realization ...

3. Facebook is boring me.