tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-145851172024-03-08T16:12:58.172-08:00Chasing dreams, not diamond ringsPrincess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.comBlogger87125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-39529573677674524452007-08-22T13:39:00.001-07:002007-08-22T13:50:09.300-07:00I woke up this morning knowing my best friend had boarded a plane to Taiwan for the year.<br /><br />I miss him.<br /><br />I got a text that made me want to cry, and I sent him encouraging words back, but inside I felt like I was missing my best companion. He's seen me through so many phases, all the good, the bad, the growing pains, the weird in-betweens, the loneliness and all emotions... I guess in this forced trip was really to help him grow, and I hope that he fulfills all his needs on his trip. While he's away... I'll have to grow to live w/out my 24/7 GPS system, and the voice of reason who picks up the phone no matter when... and talks me to sleep.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-14593931423606956032007-07-09T20:47:00.000-07:002007-07-09T20:50:30.721-07:00"I promised myself I would no longer place my hopes on a happiness that was held in someone else's hand."<br /><br />"Perhaps it was too much to ask. But having settled for too little once, I'm not willing to do it again."<br /><br /><br />Taken from the book, <em>Sister of my heart.</em>Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-81634948533486389442007-07-02T20:05:00.000-07:002007-07-02T20:17:45.195-07:00I'm in one of those moods...I'm going in circles. I want to move onn! Every single time a new pic pops up it makes me wanna go back and relive that moment. I guess I should be happy it happened. But at the same time it makes me want something that I can't have... and we all know how this works. We want more of what we can't have... and we keep seeking it. It's such a bitter sweet feeling.<br /><br />I wonder what it's like to be on the other side of this mirror. I wonder if that person thinks about it at all, if he look at pictures and wonder, what if. What if I'm the one sitting here aimlessly thinking about something that really had nothing to it? I'm pretty sure that's the case, but sometimes that hope is what keeps me going. I have to believe that there is something there... until the next thing pops up, sweeps me off my feet and takes me away from meaningless actions and memories.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-21944193718732724402007-07-02T14:35:00.000-07:002007-07-02T14:37:36.542-07:00"I'll take you anywhere you want to go... for free!!!"...That's what a taxi driver said to me this morning at 8:30am in the morning as I ran by him in his taxi. I was in jeans, flip flops, glasses and a sweater.... wth! Oh. and I felt like A$$.... and it was early. Sammy, don't you say anything!!!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-9192478225579217842007-07-01T21:04:00.000-07:002007-07-01T21:14:19.160-07:00It's weird... just a few weeks ago I really didn't mind feeling the way I feel right now. I was happy with whatever... now that I've experienced the things that I have in Cuba, at work... I feel like life is more than this. It's more than just working the 9-5, seeing friends here and there, working out and studying. A spark is missing.<br /><br />In times like this, I think about the good, the bad and remember things the way they were. It gives me that bitter-sweet feeling. I mean, if I didn't know it existed would I miss it ?<br /><br />I look at my friends around me... one by one they're finding people to be with. My girl friends are all in long relationships, they're pretty happy. I am always so happy for others but then my own happiness is rarely something I bother thinking about. It's so hard to be looking and not looking at the same time. It's like wanting to enjoy the scenery of single life but then you want to be looking at the same time so you don't miss anything with relationship potential. I'm so tired of giving someone a chance (though it really is giving yourself a chance as well)... b/c it never works out.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-52609108782098387672007-06-25T13:27:00.000-07:002007-06-27T13:42:44.514-07:00<div align="justify">Most eventful weekend EVER. </div><div align="justify"><br />I had my first gay clubbing experiencE!!!!! You CANNOT imagine how fun it is hanging around B's friends! They are alll sooooooo cute. I met B downtown, and we went to Big Sushi w/ a bunch of his GP's. So many random people... it was very cool! The food was good and it was odd at first, but everyone was really friendly. B and I went and got ready for the bar after and then went to a predrink. There were soooo many guys and ONE girl (ME). It was awesome, seeing the way they interacted and finding out how one person is connected to everyone else. It's like being in the 6 degrees of separation game. We all went to B's friend's apt for a short predrink and enjoyed some crepes. I was seriously the only estrogen in a pack of 20 guys. Afterwards, we all booked out of there and arrived at a club called AX. I have no idea where it is, but it was close to the UT res we were staying in. It was mostly Asian, and it was really dingy looking. It didn't bother me though, it's not the place, it's the people you're with ;) Everyone knew everyone else, and people stood in LINES for drinks! WTH! It's UNHEARD of in straight clubs! The music was pretty good. They had long stretches of dance music and lots of RnB at the end. By then though, my feet were killing me!!! Surprising-- my stilettoes have never hurt me this way before!!! The best part of the night: seeing all these boys DANCE! and HOLY can they DANCE! It was HOT! lol. They played a lot of PCDs and these boys ROCKED. I had to stop and watch them cuz it was that good!!! hahaha!!! B and I left around 3. I can't say how much I loved this nite. I saw B in his element and it's nice since I can now put a face to the names.<br /><br />The day after B and I woke up really early and had breakfast at the New College all-you-can-eat-breaky. I took a shower, and got out of his hair since it was the Pride Parade at 2. I went to meet Kathryn and we went to her friend's pool party over in York Mills. It was really nice... the house was huge. Rumoured that there are 10 bathrooms and an elevator to the top floor. We got to go inside to change and the house was HUGE. They had security cameras everywhere too. Garage had 5 BMW beamer/SUVs, 2 Mercedes and a hot hot HOT red Ferrari. The backyard was nice; smaller than expected but it had a built in bbq. They brought a keg and hamburgers for the guests... for free. I tanned in the sun and enjoyed the pool. A great way to end off the weekend!<br /><br />It's Wed now... things are good still. 'rents left for their organized tour to PEI. I'd have to go and get them Tues. Nothing else is new other than studying :)<br /><br />Hope you're all well. Have a great week!<br /><br />Muah,<br />Jules.</div>Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-11550650405923717412007-06-23T06:29:00.000-07:002007-06-23T08:11:33.565-07:00Happy Pride Weekend!At work right now... bored. There's so many people here today, yet I am so bored. Tonite should be fun! It's Gay Pride Weekend in Toronto & I'm seeing B and his friends for dinner at some sushi place and then we're going to A X. I'm really excited. We were always supposed to go gay clubbing but it never happened and now that he's leaving in August I find we're doing everything possible.<br /><br />The other day I had so much to write but then now I don't feel like I have anything happening in my life worth mentioning. Well, what I can say is... I've recovered from Cuba. Seriously, what happens in Cuba has to stay there, lol. If you bring everything along w/ you, you're just gonna be one messed up person! Oh, I posted most of the pics on fb, so check them out when you get a chance :)Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-41900797613125748982007-06-21T21:19:00.000-07:002007-06-21T21:30:50.467-07:00Running on impulse!Got my naval pierced. Yep. That's right!!! Yeah I don't know if I really wanted it, well... I always thought they were really sexy but didn't seriously think about getting one till Gill mentioned in Cuba that she wanted one. We kinda said we should do it together and we talked on msn yesterday... I told her I wanted to do it this weekend and then realized I had Thurs off so I suggested going to this place my coworker suggested downtown on Queen called New Tribe. I didn't think she was going to say yes, but we decided to go in the afternoon... and it happened! I picked Gill up and we dropped off my car at Bayview Village, we took the subway to Osgoode and got to New Tribe (which was right across from Citytv!). I got some pizza in me first and then we went in... Gill was really nervous! I didn't think I was till I got in and had to do the piercing first! It pinched a little and it actually hurt more after it was done! Gill got hers done right after and she said it hurt sooo much! By then I was actually passing out... almost felt like I was going to puke! I suddenly started sweating and had to lie down. Then Gill laid down... got better, and then I got sick again! It was sooooooo weird, and sooo scary, but it was sooo worth it! The dude who did our piercing must've thought of us as the biggest wussies!!! Seriously, we didn't even look like we belonged in that store cuz we were so prissy compared to everyone else! Everyone in there had tattoos and had previous piercings!<br /><br />We went to Eaton's Centre after-- checked out Costa Blanca and bought some stuff... and then got juice for the ride home. It was a very eventful day!!!<br /><br />I still can't believe we did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol! 8 weeks and we're going to be able to change this ring!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-90764601192746577202007-05-20T06:53:00.000-07:002007-05-20T07:55:37.318-07:00BUDO night recap...I'm an idiottttt. ahhh I have no idea how these things happen to me.... sooooo classy. SO CLASSY. ahaha...<br /><br />It was Tyf's birthday bash last nite. We were at BUDO... and it was well, messY? I dunno how to explain this. I drove downtown w/ B cuz we had no other way of coming back uptown otherwise and it was just a plain, bad idea. I wasn't feeling well all week and I thought, oh yeah, not going to get trashed, I have to work tomorrow and all weekend anyway. So we get to the club, I grab Tyf and we got drinks. and more drinks. and more drinks... and more drinks. The guys were just giving me liquid all night long. In my mind, it gives a whole new meaning as to why they call it BUDO LIQUID THEATRE. The music wasn't bad, we were all dancing... and I found out a secret about someone and consequently told a secret of mine. Things that should make me embarrassed no longer do (oh boy)... my dark side is having a hell of a time. I was using my outdoor voice for the longest time outside... and also inside the Pho place lol! Highlight of my night: I got DROPPED when a guy tried to pick me up in his drunken stooper. Like, full out I was on the ground in the fetal position.<br /><br />NEWAYS... AHHHH... now that I got all this out of my system... perhaps I'll be in less awe about my stupidity for the rest of the day.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-24174082428547487152007-05-19T07:32:00.000-07:002007-05-19T08:58:29.711-07:00Long weekend!I'm at workkkk, lol! I hope this weekend flies by. I'm alone this weekend-- my whole fam has left me for the Woodbury malls (New Jersey)... I'm left to bunni/bird/turtle/fish sit. I sent my fam off to First Markham Place this morning and then went home to let the bunnies out. They had their play time and then I had to clean after them. Ewwwwww to cleaning their poop. They have that "I look cute so I can get away with it" look all the time. Damnit! lol<br /><br />I'm working allll weekend. Meaning today, tomorrow and Monday. I can't really complain though, it's double time and a half Monday... it keeps me from the malls and from trouble ;) so it's all good. Plus, it makes up for the sick days I took this week when I was dizzy and what not from my headaches. I went to see my fam doctor earlier this week and all he did was take blood from the sicky. What a vampire!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I went to see the walk in doc. I swear I don't have a sinus congestion/infection as she says. I mean, she came into the room, looked at the notes the nurse left her about my condition and pressed on my face... asked me if it hurt and when I said it didn't, she was all surprised, said it should hurt and goes... oh well, I'm sure it's still a sinus issue. Personally, I'm pretty sure it's vertigo ... my balance is off and my head keeps hurting... :(<br /><br />Neways, back to work !!! Have a great long weekend :)Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-10219466557321073272007-05-13T08:21:00.000-07:002007-05-13T08:32:20.558-07:00You must've missed me...It's been soooo long since I last blogged-- I was shocked myself! How is everyone? I'm still good, working right now, lol. Really hard apparently :P<br /><br />Had a very very busy weekend. Went to opening night at Dock's on Friday and it was amazing (it must've been the alcohol). I went w/ Farah & Lilly & saw Nat and her friends and some random people I knew here and there. WEIRD. I wore a dress (that could've been a shirt) ... but I didn't feel bad when I looked around and saw what other girls were wearing... ohhh Docks... lol! Met a few people, had after club food w/ Lilly, Nat & her boys and then went back to Lilly's to stay for the night. I woke up the next morning to go to Dragonboating by the water and it took Lilly and I over 1 hour to GET there cuz that's how crappy it is to travel w/in Toronto. By the time I got there the practice was pretty much OVER and Lilly and I couldn't stand how cold it was so we went back to the Eaton's Centre, ate and then I went home... I went out on a date w/ Dani at night-- we went to Milestone's for dinner, Demetre's for dessert and Matt's for a gathering. It was a good catch up day though I living on 2 hours of sleep!<br /><br />I'm so tired, honestly... lol but I LOVE it. Being <strong><span style="font-size:180%;">single</span></strong> is AWESOME. It explains some odd behaviours, I admit (I'm an angel!) but as long as I'm not hurting anyone it's allllllll gooooooodddd. I can't wait though, CUBA is nearing and my girl SAMMY is visiting mEEEEE!!! weeeeeeeeeeee :D<br /><br />Oh how I LOVE SUMMER!!!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-44587790830595883832007-04-21T09:21:00.000-07:002007-04-21T09:23:48.711-07:00We shared a history...It’s so hard to write what I want to say these days. It’s something I’ve been thinking about. I wrote my ex a couple weeks ago, just to see if he was alive still. I wonder about that sometimes… maybe it’s curiosity or maybe b/c I actually care. Either way, it was nice to get an email back. I added him on fb and then found out he defriended me. Hahaha… funny how things in life work. I honestly can say that at least I tried. I felt bad in December… things are more stable now and at least now I don’t feel any guilt/have any bad feelings. I don’t think/remember much anymore. Soon these things would just fade… as will the pictures. I wonder if there is a point in keeping mementos of the past. As I move on I want to let go of more and more. I wanna go paperless! Lol. I sound like every corporation out there right now hahaha!<br /><br />I’m at work right now… lol see how productive I am? It’s actually counted as overtime, so it’s a realll pleasure :) Today has been really nice so far. It’s really GREAT weather outside, I went for a workout at the Willowbrook park, came home, had a shower, an awesome breakfast and came into work. Going to be here till 2, then going to mandarin class till 5, and then going shopping :) I need sunglasses. Perhaps I will finally find a pair of sunglasses & some bikinis :D After all this I’m going to a work function. It’s gonna b fun :) Sunday I work hahaha… good times. BTW, I passed my second exam :) I barely studied for this one, but WHOOOT! I’m onto the 3/4/5th billion upcoming tests/exams! I can’t believe I’m actually happy about this hahaha..<br /><br />Take care my friends. I miss all of you who are abroad… and those at home and at school whom I never seem to see :(Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-9139941732652412892007-04-08T11:49:00.000-07:002007-04-08T11:55:28.096-07:00Happy Easter/Passover :)Hi everyone, how's it going? long time no talk? Possibly ? lol<br /><br />I miss you all, don't worry. Just still very busy, that's all. That's the way life is. I think it's also the way I prefer it. This weekend started w/ a bang. WEnt clubbing on Thursday nite to Republik. Young crowd, but it was still fun. Saw some really random friends I haven't seen in a long long time (we used to club in the summer together)... who knew they clubbed like 3-4 times a week ??? CRAZY eh? WEnt out for coffee w/ Lauren, Friday nite to see friends, Sat I had breakfast w/ my mom and then went shopping w/ some friends... bought nice stuff (first shopping trip since I switched jobs :D) and then had coffee w/ Brendan at night. Woke up this morning and got to work at 8:30, haven't done much since. I have finished a couple Sudoku's but other than that I've been chatting and chilling. Going to the gym tonite.<br /><br />Finished my CSC course the other week- got a nice pass :) Now it's onto CPH. I was overly aggressive and changed my exam date from May 2 to April 18. Yep, that's in 10 days. sigh. good jobbbbbb Jules. lol. At least it feels like other ppl are studying with me :) Neways, I miss everyone who I haven't seen in the past couple of months. Hope you're all doing well.<br /><br />PS. I'm going to Cuba!!! :) June 2-8 Gill and I are going- sooooo excited. I haven't ever been to an all inclusive before !!!! If anyone wants to join, lemmie know.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-58588998535388224442007-03-20T16:10:00.000-07:002007-03-20T16:15:52.194-07:00I don't want to hear itStop crying wolf. Don't bother telling me the next time something bad happens to you if you don't try to learn from it. If you can't move on... it's your problem. I listen and to comprehend and make things better for people going thru hard times but if they are just going to go back to the way they were previously after my many consolations, hours of commitment to them as a friend ... this is me, saying no more.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-33215245122060678752007-03-15T20:14:00.000-07:002007-03-15T20:20:42.849-07:00I'm speaking... but it's as if nobody can hear me...My week is so longggg... I had a break from work Wed, but that means I actually have to work Sat so... blah! lol. didn't really have anything in particular to write about. Just bored out of my mind. I really haven't studied much-- actually finished off a book today (Interview w/ the Vampire). Such an old book, but it was an easy read. I haven't read a book in ages, so this is awesome!<br /><br />Sis is coming home this weekend, bro is out to London and Jules is out partying Friday nite. Going to Flirt Lounge- if any of you are interested, give my cell a call!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-20293613052128776052007-03-08T16:43:00.000-08:002007-03-08T16:56:37.466-08:00March MaDDness!HOLA!!!<br /><br />Long time no blog. Sorry friends :) I'm here though, still alive and kicking. Just work a lot (it seems). My brain is working functionally now and it's a lot more active these days w/ the new job. I like it. Frankly it's fun sometimes. It's always a challenge, you have to learn how to talk to people and handle situations right away. Lots of on the spot improv-ing going on. Everytime clients ask me something, my brain draws a big fat blank. I keep calling my support departments to find out what's going on. haha... Lots of people I trained with don't like this job... but I'm looking at it in a positive light. At least I'm not facebooking every 2 minutes and sitting there with no way of knowing/measuring how I'm doing. I'm sure if I wasn't performing well at my job/enjoying it I wouldn't want them to measure my productivity and my effectiveness on the phone, but I think what I'm doing is valuable and is going to take me where I want to go... but now that I'm on the phone all the time..... I try to avoid talking on the phone at home now. My love for phones have come and gone. haha.<br /><br />Life outside work: still busy as hell. As per usual. Nothing new to report really. Last weekend I worked on Sunday, so that was an experience. Felt a lot more productive than being at home and doing laundry and lounging. Though I miss the ability to shop (I am not supposed to... but still). I see my fam less too... but maybe that can change in the next week. Trying to get back to the gym- I've also neglected that in the past 2 weeks. My room still looks like a bomb exploded in it... and poor Speckle (my turtle) is floating in some dirttyyy water. Lots of fun things have happened though! It was Jess' and my surprise party the other week-- first of all, I thought it was only for Jess, but turns out it was mine too ! It was wicked. Had LOTS of chocolate cake and FONDU. LOVED it. Lots of finger foods too. I have to say, Eric/Lali/Dani did a great job!!! lol What else, last week I went and played vball at York. It was the 12th Annual RAGE vball tourney- started at 7pm and went till 6am since we were in Tier 3, semi finals. I WAS exhausted. By the end of the night (morning?) my arms were really really bruised and swollen and my palms were purple (Matthew said it was b/c blood wasn't flowing from my arms to my palms cuz they were soooo swollen). I also had a nice leg cramp that Ajda & Matt tried fixing for me. It's great playing w/ a bunch of Kin students. They were fixing me as I was falling apart! lol Went home and crashed that Sat morning and woke up at 4:30pm, got ready for the basketball tournament for work. I was one of 2 girls on the teams... guess what, we were runners up in the whole tourney! Wicked, EH? I'm finally starting to feel okay after my weekend marathon. arms are back to the right size and I can WALK :D The other day I had wings with Morris/Walid/Matt & Amy. It was a good nite. Not sure what's up this weekend... I have it off :D whoooo ! Dragonboating season is starting up :D I'm on Wildcards w/ B's fam... but I might be joining TD's too. Wonder if that would be a smart move considering how busy I am already :S We shall see, we shall see. Got a couple more courses to take- my next exam is in... 3.5 weeks. Whooooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-79309193503128021032007-02-19T15:33:00.000-08:002007-02-19T16:39:13.483-08:00The big 2-4Had my quietest birthday ever... Thursday came and it went. It started w/ missing phone calls (and Jess waiting outside my house till she decided to leave and go home cuz I wasn't answering my phone cuz it was on vibrate, sigh). Ppl @ work were really nice, and I went for dinner w/ Brendan at Pallucci. It was great :) Didn't see my family really, but I Heard from a couple friends all over, so it made me feel good :)<br /><br />Friday my sister came home from MAC :) Saturday was Chinese New Year prep, so I went grocery shopping w/ mom and checked out the mall while I was at it (I hate shopping for work clothes). Went home for a huge fam dinner and then jetted out to Jess' & Eric's ENGAGEMENT party. It was a good time!!! Despite the fact that I drove there in my INtrepeid that was dysfunctional and wouldn't let me pull the key out of the ignition ... so I drove myself home and got the other car. whoo. lol. It was a really nice reception, they served lots of finger treats and lots of desserts and drinks! Seemed like time flew by! I then went to Lincoln's Farewell party over at C Lounge, some Karaoke place. It was a good time...... I just lose a lot at Karaoke games.... and when u lose, it just means more drinking. I think I'm still sick from mixing alcohol all night long. Sunday I went out w/ my mom to the temple. It was crazy packed so we parked all the way at Longo's and walked down. We went home, played some chinese card game and then my mom, sister and I went to Markville. I bought a lotta stuff- most of which I will be returning cuz I'm that picky!<br /><br />Neways, eventful week coming up. Last week of training !!! :SPrincess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1171233289937651362007-02-11T17:25:00.000-08:002007-02-11T14:34:49.976-08:00I just want to dig a hole for one and hide.Work is busy- it's good. Nothing new really. Just workie workie all day long from 9 to 5, then I stay at my workplace and study with some other kids for some course we have to pass as a condition of our employment. I go home, eat dinner, spend some time reading more stuff about work and go to bed after chatting on msn. That's life so far.<br /><br />Been out a couple times. Saw some friends, had some nice dinners out. Had a really crappy Saturday this weekend, but let's not get into it. Let's just say I'm not going to willingly drive downtown or hang out w/ random people of my friend's b/c some of them are just rude and ignore you. Even more so: I'm buying myself a map of Toronto. If I hide out from now till summer comes, there's a good reason. Neways, I hope I'm not going to feel bitter for much longer cuz I've been sulking all day. Also. Is it a known fact that Hair Salons are not open on Sundays? I found out the hard way today when I drove around for about 2 hours looking for a salon to cut my hair at. What a good, productive weekend. Gotta love life.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1170393429478698632007-02-02T00:15:00.000-08:002007-02-01T21:17:09.506-08:00Disappointment in the human spiritWhatever you think is real now isn't later. What you take for granted now is what you will learn a hard and bitter lesson about. Things you believe in now will only stand to be corrected. Head games are inevitable, selfishness is human nature and money and time are the two scarcest resources in our world today. Love is overrated. People forget what's important to them till they lose it. Soon I will be one of the lost ones. Maybe one day you will miss me. Maybe you won't. Maybe I shouldn't/wouldn't care. You think you care... you think you try, you think you are doing the best you can. Ever think how it feels for that person on the other side of the situation? If you want to make a difference you don't talk about it. You act on it. Adult choices, growing up, earning money: shitty deal. What's the point of fighting battles you'd never win? Being genuine = being naive = a pushover.<br /><br />Where does this leave you? How does it make you feel? Disappointed. Sad. Unsatisfied. What else? You don't care anymore... well, at least you try not to. Think about this statement: friends come and go. It's more like friends go and keep going.<br /><br />We're all loners. It's just whether you realize it now or later. We all die alone.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1169696058719131672007-01-24T19:09:00.000-08:002007-01-24T19:34:18.746-08:00Things I truly believe in and live by... at 23.<ol type="1"><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Soul mates</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">True love</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Lasting and enduring friendship till my rocking chair days</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">The saying, "Home is where the heart is"</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Everlasting hope</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Pain is a beautiful emotion that all should experience and endure gracefully to learn how to cherish life, love, friends and joy</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Happiness is a state of mind</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">If you want it you go and get it</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Everyone should travel</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Never let the elderly wait for you to visit</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Even if you’re tired, angry, sad, drunk, in pain or happy, act with grace, love, control and patience</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">You don’t get second chances- if it didn’t work the first time, why would it the second?</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">When something is gone, it’s gone forever</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Don’t ever look back- there’s only one way to go and it’s forward</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;"><span style="font-style: italic;">Time, people, situations</span> don’t wait for you</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">What is here now will be gone in a flash if you forget about it</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Money comes and money <span style="font-weight: bold;">goes</span></span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">There will be a female US president in my lifetime</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Equality and fairness</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Never start your morning on a bad note</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">The one thing you can always change about yourself is your attitude</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Love is blind</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Being versatile</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Taking risks</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">There’s a time for everything. If you keep preparing yourself, you’ll never be ready for a challenge - act when opportunity knocks. </span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">I was made for business.</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">What goes around comes around</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">If you are doing something that’s right for you, you would be able to love yourself and be happy</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">If you’ve got it, flaunt it. You only live once.</span> </li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Act with conscience b/c then I’d never regret a thing I’ve done.</span></li><li class="MsoNormal" style=""><span style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:100%;">Blood is thicker than water. With this logic, everyone on this planet is my brother and sister.<br /></span></li></ol>Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1169433572613120862007-01-21T21:34:00.000-08:002007-01-21T18:39:32.630-08:00Hola!This weekend was fun. I watched a straight 8 hours of chinese soap opera on Friday nite after work and Saturday I took Matt out for a birthday lunch. The sushi was okay- but definitely sticking to Ajisai. It's the best (at least for lunch). Went to the Arms in Unionville afterwards and it was a rowdy, rowdy time. Matthew Rock drunk is some really good entertainment. He's just sooo loud. lol. Got home really late but managed to get up and do laundry, went to the gym for a bit... but it was CRAZY cold outside. I want a new winter jacket that's actually warm but it seems like such a waste to get it now... it's halfway thru winter. NEways... this week will be fast. Work Mon-Wed and then new work Friday. It's gonna be interesting. I hope it works out to my advantage. Yayyy laundry and ironing. I need to go and shop again.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1169063129402014272007-01-17T14:44:00.000-08:002007-01-17T11:45:29.420-08:00AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!Help. Ok........ made a decision (for those who don't know you will soon). Just let me tell you when I'm comfortable with everything and all the dust has settled... for now...<br /><br />AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1167841039161017962007-01-03T11:08:00.000-08:002007-01-03T08:19:59.940-08:00What's normal?Is life back to the way it should be? I'm confused. lol. It's been a very busy December and I can't see it slowing down for January eitheR! I think I need to take myself out of party mode. I can't possibly have anything else to celebrate........ can I???<br /><br />I'm back at work. Nothing new here, really. Yeah, seriously nothing is new here. I just sat here thinking about it for a good couple mins.<br /><br />Well, I guess I could start off w/ New Year's. It was good- Jess/Dani/Michelle were missing so it was a tad... TAD weird. Some ppl I usually don't spend new year's with was there too, but I guess that's what happens when everyone's busy and away in school/travelling. I miss my crew. We were at Fez Batiq- cheapest new year's ever. I think I spent about $53 in total. That includes cab, predrinking, ticket for getting in and drinks at the bar. Good times!<br /><br />I forgot to write about my potluck (Jess reminded me)- it was like, 2 weeks ago! I had a lot of ppl over at my house and we had SO MUCH food. It was ridiculous! But it seemed like everyone was happily fed, and afterwards, happily drunk. lol. This is what get togethers should be like. I was drunk off a whole bottle of Amaretto- and I didn't pass out or puke. I was just very very happy. I think you all should be proud of my new tolerance. Though I can't say I'm too impressed w/ it b/c it's getting more expensive and I like my money in my pocket :P I had a turkey dinner at home w/ the fam, it was a gigantic turkey and it didn't taste AS good, but meh. Went to Matt's for a get together one day, Karaoke'd w/ Nat and some others another nite and went home at 3 hammered and made it to work the next day w/ a gigantic hangover. Thank goodness mom and dad weren't around to see all this. Had dinner at Jess' house one day w/ her fam (turkey) and it was really really good! I loved it, and getting some alone time w/ Jess was awesome. I sometimes wonder if Eric is really around b/c honestly, I haven't seen him for about... well, a couple weeks. It seems like a long time... just b/c so much has happened in btwn, I guess. Also went shopping- it was alright, nothing huge. I should've gone shopping in the states but I didn't take time off, so that would've been hard. Wish I had the chance though, everyone who went told me how cheap and amazing it was!<br /><br />NEways, back to workie. Hope you're all having a good week.<br /><br />OH YEA! <strong><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc33cc;">HAPPY 2007!!!!!!!!!</span></strong>Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1162752032594569902006-11-05T13:33:00.000-08:002006-11-05T10:40:32.736-08:00My theory...People always look back in the past and wonder what they could have done differently. Me, on the other hand... I don't care to do that anymore. What's done is done, and it should stay in the past. I look back frequently and think to myself- I should have done this, I should have done that. I regret things. I wish I cherished things more, wish I cared, loved, talked... everything more. But sadly, this is how people learn in life. Experiences shape you and you learn how bitter/happy/sad/exciting things can be. These experiences also teach you that things in this world just aren't as pretty and wonderful as they portray it in movies. Our generation is constantly in dream mode. We always think things can get better and that other people have it better than us. In certain circumstances, that may be the case... but did you ever realize that we're all blessed with different experiences that make us unique and help us afford the lifestyle of our choice? Life is about choices. You make them. Live UP to, and own up to the choices that you've made and be happy with them. If you're not happy, then do something. I for one, can't say that I've made the best choices. But I am making the best out of my situation and I'm trying to mitigate and minimize my losses. In a few months, I will hopefully be in a better state than I am now. You can't be perpetually happy- happiness is not entirely in your control because there are external forces at play. But I challenge all of us to try to be happy with what we have. We are more fortunate than most and we make decisions for us. Nobody else does.<br /><br />I really didn't set out to write the blurb above... it just came out and I don't know what I think of it. But really, what I wanted to say was that sometimes you don't know if you're doing the right or the wrong thing for you. In the past couple of months I realize that there is a very thin line between the good and the bad. You can't really tell at any point in time if you're making the right decision for you (or for someone else if there is someone else involved). I don't have a solution to this issue... I wish that someone would tell me what to do in these cases. I'm so used to business case analysis from school but you can't do one for daily life situations! You have to act and respond right at that moment b/c the time will come and it will go... and when it goes and you've done either everything or nothing, you might feel like a complete idiot. The worst is... you never know when you're doing something right or wrong when it involves your own, and someone else's emotions. Things just aren't transparent. People could look fine but feel something totally different inside. Feelings and memories last forever. You leave a piece of you with someone and take a piece of them with you as you go through in life. It's funny how feelings from the past have a stronger hold on me then the feelings I'm currently experiencing. I guess that's what happens when you see more of the world and become more jaded. Everyone loses their soul. Not just biz kids :P And sometimes you wonder if some things are going to come back and kick you in the ass. I've always been more of a thinker... but who knew so much could come out of nothing ?!<br /><br />NEWAYS, weekend was great. Had dinner w/ my fam on Friday nite- Red Lobster! It was really really good. Then went to Maddy's w/ Morris for some Morris-Jules time. Met up w/ some of his friends and sat near the Piano Man. He was wicked!!! Morris' friend Adam was hilarious. hahaha... ;) Saturday I tried to study. Did very little (and doing very little now) but I went out at nite w/ Gigi. It was an awesome all girl's nite. We went downtown and there was a HUGE LINE UP at 11pm and it took us about an hour to get in. The crowd was older, mostly 25-30 year olds, and it was awesome. The martini's were SOOO GOOD. And the guys were hot! The bummer is that on the way there, my right heel broke! It was so sad. I loved the shoes, but I guess I'd have to go and get a new pair now that they're dead. I somehow managed to walk & dance in them all nite. Anyways, I'm off. Have a great day everyone :)<br /><br />[Yea, oddest blog ever. I know.]Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14585117.post-1162481514025447602006-11-02T10:29:00.000-08:002006-11-02T07:31:54.066-08:001. The work elevator is dangerous.<br /><br />2. I attract morons. Yeah that's all. No, nothing happened. Just a sudden realization ...<br /><br />3. Facebook is boring me.Princess Juleshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05854448653879962710noreply@blogger.com2